So why did I sleep with crazy girl again last night? I wasn't drunk, so there goes that excuse. I wasn't horny, so there goes that excuse. In fact, it's the first time in my life I've slept with two different girls in the same day. What's wrong with me? And the whole time I'm on my couch making out with crazy girl, I can't help but stare at a picture of me and the ex in NYC out of the corner of my eye. All I could think about was how I missed her and how much fun that trip was. I hate to admit it, but i do miss her. If only she would listen. Last night seemed like a good idea at the time but I was such an asshole this morning. She likes to wake up every couple of hours and bust a move on me. I told her last night, that was not going to happen because I was sick and I needed my sleep. Of course, a few hours after falling asleep, I wake up to her snuggling and caressing me. Did she not hear what I said? So I basically said to leave me alone because I was sleeping. She was offended. Oh well.

But now I think a small crush I've had on someone has perhaps developed into a little more than a small crush. I don't think the feeling is mutual, though. I just called her and invited her out for a drink later. Stupid voice mail. We'll see if she calls back. But I also met a friend of hers last night who was totally kick ass and has a big dog who I bet Rocket would love. But I made the mistake of leaving without getting her number or anything. Boo hiss.

Perhaps I'm looking to hard for companionship? Sometimes I think that, but then I realize that perhaps I'm just being a normal, single 20-something male. After all, there is one girl with whom I could have that secure, committed relationship with, but that's not really what I want. Nothing against her... she's great and all. Just can't do it right now.

Be free young Rob, be free!