And as we say our long goodbye...

I took a trip back in time tonight. There was a time a couple of years ago when there were a couple of songs that reminded me of a certain someone. They were pretty appropriate to the circumstances and I listened to them over and over and over again. The songs were:

Snow Patrol - Run

Wrens - Hopeless

Stills - Still In Love

It's been a long time since I listened to all those songs at once, but I did tonight. Why? Good question. I wasn't really feeling nostalgic; I guess it was more to prove to myself that I could listen to all those songs and not think of her. Of course, i did think of her, but not like I used to. I think about a lot of things... what if I had never met the girl she thought I cheated on her with... what if one night she had found me when she was looking for me... what if we had decided to have the baby... what if... what if... what if. I used to think about these things with regret, thinking that I had made some wrong decisions, but now I think about these things with curiosity. My life would have been a lot different, no doubt, and I used to think it would have been better. It took me a long time to realize that life without her was not necessarily worse than life with her. I'll never know what might have been, and it's nice to not think about that anymore. She was a great girl, my first true love, but that was then. Allow me to quote Little Texas (I bet most of you don't even know who Little Texas is):

Sure I think about you now and then
But it's been a long long time
I've got a good life now I've moved on
So when you cross my mind

I try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then

And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again

There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been

We could sit and talk about this all night long
And wonder why we didn't last
Yes they might be the best days
We will ever know
But we'll have to leave them in the past

So try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been

That same old look in your eyes
It's a beautiful night
I'm so tempted to stay
But too much time has gone by
We should just say goodbye
And turn and walk away

And try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been

No we'll never know
What might have been