Girls, part 8 million or so

I've come to realize why it's been so long since I've been in any sort of meaningful, long-term relationship. I relate it to David Cross. Have you heard his first CD when he talks a bit about what it's like living in New York? Well, if you haven't, to sum it up, he talks about the daily struggle between choosing to look at either the craziest guy in the world or the most beautiful girl in the world. I sort of relate somewhat... allow me to explain.

It's not so much a problem with looking a beautiful girls; I can be in a relationship, look at beautiful girls and have it not be any sort of problem. The problem lies in choice. Let's take my most recent dating experience that I mentioned recently. I've met a girl who is pretty amazing that I like a lot. It seems also that she likes me. This should all be pretty simple, shouldn't it? Well it's not always so. Tonight for example, I was hanging out with someone. It's a girl that I kind of knew in Dallas that moved up here a few weeks ago. I never knew her very well, we never really hung out, and I was never really attracted to her. Tonight, however, we happened to meet up and hang out a while. I couldn't get over how much fun I was having with her and how my heart skipped a beat when she looked at me the way she did a few times. And she looked much more amazing than I ever remember her looking. Suddenly, the girl who has not left my mind for days on end is suddenly replaced by another who I can't stop thinking about all night. This is terrible isn't it? It almost leads me to believe that if i were in a relationship right now that I would find it hard not to cheat on someone for the first time in my life. That's a scary thought. This has now been the longest paragraph in Rob Gordon blog history, so I'm going to end it and go to bed. The Terrors have a bocce championship to begin defending tomorrow.