Missed connections pt III
I realize it's been a while since I gave a Miss Missed Connections update, so maybe now is a good time, in light of the weekend's events. My last writing was over a month and a half ago, after our first date. Since then, there have been many more "dates" and I like this girl a lot. It all came at an odd time, a time when I was finally starting to feel good about being single again and enjoying all that it has to offer. But when something comes along that feels right, you have to go for it. Unfortunately, she possibly doesn't agree.
We've seen each other at least once or twice a week since our first meeting almost two months ago; we've spent time getting to know each other, hanging out, emailing, text messaging, etc. It's almost as if we're dating, but you see, we're not really dating. She, too, had just got out of a long relationship (that ended sometime in June I believe, only two months before we met), and after a couple of weeks, she made it clear that she isn't ready for another relationship. I've been very good about respecting that and since we enjoy each other's company, we continued to hang out. What makes it difficult is when she tells me she really likes me, loves spending time with me and thinks about me a lot. But, the "friendship" has carried on.
This weekend, we met for a drink, which turned into quite a few drinks, and a more serious conversation was had about where we're going. She reiterated the fact that she has no energy for a relationship and is worried that one day soon I will grow tired of her company and resent her for all the time we've spent together. That conversation somehow led to me going back to her apartment and spending the night where a nice makeout session occurred. Two days later an email from her declared that she had a lot of fun Friday night/Saturday morning and couldn't wait to see me again. Yet, the friend thing ensues.
I've never been down this road before, and while part of me thinks I should jump off as quickly as possible, there's another part that thinks maybe she'll come around one day soon. I'm not good with this patience thing, but I really have no other alternative right now. Getting to know her, I think she's a wonderful person whose company I enjoy immensely, so it's hard to just toss that aside. Even when I know the possible outcome might not be good and each time I see her I fall for her more and more, I don't want to cut it off.
Patience is a virtue, not one that I normally possess, so if nothing else, I guess I'm building character.
We've seen each other at least once or twice a week since our first meeting almost two months ago; we've spent time getting to know each other, hanging out, emailing, text messaging, etc. It's almost as if we're dating, but you see, we're not really dating. She, too, had just got out of a long relationship (that ended sometime in June I believe, only two months before we met), and after a couple of weeks, she made it clear that she isn't ready for another relationship. I've been very good about respecting that and since we enjoy each other's company, we continued to hang out. What makes it difficult is when she tells me she really likes me, loves spending time with me and thinks about me a lot. But, the "friendship" has carried on.
This weekend, we met for a drink, which turned into quite a few drinks, and a more serious conversation was had about where we're going. She reiterated the fact that she has no energy for a relationship and is worried that one day soon I will grow tired of her company and resent her for all the time we've spent together. That conversation somehow led to me going back to her apartment and spending the night where a nice makeout session occurred. Two days later an email from her declared that she had a lot of fun Friday night/Saturday morning and couldn't wait to see me again. Yet, the friend thing ensues.
I've never been down this road before, and while part of me thinks I should jump off as quickly as possible, there's another part that thinks maybe she'll come around one day soon. I'm not good with this patience thing, but I really have no other alternative right now. Getting to know her, I think she's a wonderful person whose company I enjoy immensely, so it's hard to just toss that aside. Even when I know the possible outcome might not be good and each time I see her I fall for her more and more, I don't want to cut it off.
Patience is a virtue, not one that I normally possess, so if nothing else, I guess I'm building character.
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