WOW, I don't know what to say. I don't. Should I be happy? Should I be sad? A lot was said tonight. Good and not so good. I don't know how to interpret. Where are my friend (s)? I so need to talk right now. Instead I'll just type. I did it, I laid it all out, I laid it all on the line. I didn't get the response I had hoped for, but I didn't get the worse case scenario, either. She knows I like her, I told her so. She said she liked me, she told me so. She has reseravations... exactly what I expected. But nothing to do with NY boy, nothing to do with me. Totally out of left field. Her hang up is that I own a store with a guy who plays in a band whose record she works. What what her boss think, she said. Conflict of interest. Ethical, business moral questions. My god, that's what's stopping this from happening? I'm speechless. She likes me. She wants to pursue this, but she feels she can't. How do I overcome this? Her job is the most important thing to her and she would never, ever do anything to jeopardize that. I don't blame her. I would never ask that of her. But I think she's wrong. I don't think there's a problem. Maybe I'm biased. I don't know what to do. I've always felt that my charm and sincerity could win anyone over, but this goes beyond that. This goes into something that I have no control over. I told her to follow her heart. I can only hope that what she feels in hers is what I feel in mine. Charm is no longer a part of the equation and I'm at a loss. What is a boy to do? My optimistic side says that charm will prevail and she will come around and pursue something that is wonderful. But she's being logical, and maybe she will continue to be so.

there will be more time tomorrow. hopefully i'll have an update... keep your fingers crossed.